I was in hospital for 8 days in December and got out just before Christmas.
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Hospital 31st May-28th June 2021
I was admitted to the pscyh ward after being with the crisis mental health liaison team yet again on May 31st following flashbacks. I’d recently got into a relationship with a man, and my brain was trying to process it all. The voices were telling me I had to go to another world to be …
Hospital October- November 2020
I was in hospital from the 26th October- 26th November 2020 following a suicide attempt. I had tried to get hold of as many of my meds as I could and took them. Hannah split up with me back in July (2020) and things went down hill from then. My best friend ‘R’ wasn’t allowed …
Suicide attempt hospitalisation Feb 2020
Things got worse and I was drifting from Hannah, we barely spent any time together. My previous post about paranoia this month explains how things got bad. I didn’t have the one person in the world who made me feel safe because we work opposite ends of the day- there was no time to see …
Paranoia- Feb 2020
My paranoia is bad at the moment, I’m getting signs that the person who abused me is trying to get my attention and is closing in on me. It’s causing me a huge amount of anxiety, to the point I can’t breathe and I can’t even let out a single tear…I’m just in shock. 1) I …
Blip?
Last night I relapsed-bad. I read messages between my partner, my father and their mutual friend whilst sat in the extension of my in-laws house. Last time I did this was on my birthday and blocked out Han for an entire week. That’s why I thought we had got past all the private chats because …
Friends
I’ve always wanted to be the type of girl who goes on adventures with a couple of friends and make some wild memories. But I’ve never sustained a stable and solid friendship for long enough to. Sure I have friends, but they probably have stronger friendships with other mates. Being in and out of …
Positive quotes
In case anyone needs some positive vibes, here are a collection of quotes I’ve stumble upon. ‘Even the sun falls every day and rises again to shine the next.’ ♥ ‘Courage doesn’t mean you don’t get afraid. Courage means you don’t let fear stop you’. ♥ ‘When you come to the end of …
Sister
This Friday (July 12 2019) my sister was diagnosed with cancer. CANCER. She’s 18. I’d so take it from her so she can be a regular 18 year old going clubbing and living life to the full. She shouldn’t have to worry about chemo or whether or not she can have kids . She should be capturing crazy memories to …
Pregnancy
I remember talking to my friend Meg in her bedroom asking to move in with her when the baby arrived. It felt impossible to be at home. It was a surreal experience. Most mornings from a week or so after the attack, morning sickness became routine. The concept of visiting the pharmacy was far too daunting after being turned away by the pharmacist who said legally they …
Self Mental Health Progression 