Paranoia- Feb 2020

My paranoia is bad at the moment, I’m getting signs that the person who abused me is trying to get my attention and is closing in on me. It’s causing me a huge amount of anxiety, to the point I can’t breathe and I can’t even let out a single tear…I’m just in shock.

1) I was frightened to move GP’s because it is also his local GP but it’s literally just down the road from me so makes more logical sense to go there rather than trekking a couple of towns away for meds.

2) A package with his first name on (and possibly middlename) arrives at my address- No one with that name has lived at that address for decades…I know because it was my late Grandfather’s house and he’s lived there since my father was little.

3) A dead bird. So at the end of our garden but to the right there is an old people’s home but members of the public of course can walk down right to our fence if they please. I’m certain he’s responsible for the dead bird.